Iseem to be dark nighting at the moment. It is a familiar pattern to me. I have been through several of these now.
The dark night can feel unpleasant. Painful feelings and memories bubble to the surface like toxic sludge — and there is a self-loathing that hangs over me like a fault-finding shadow. It can feel like many things are going wrong at once. Like dark forces are working against me.
The dark night is not an intellectual matter. One cannot think their way out of it. One must still their way out of it.