We had a family of five. I was born in the morning. They told me I was a big boy. I was the first to come out. My mother told me the sun shone brightly when she proved she could birth a child.
My father was very authoritarian. He was a naval man. He would spend months at sea. When I was a child, my mother took me to the beach to find him. We never did.
My mother was regularly unfaithful to my father. She could not be alone. She did not have the depth of character or the emotional intelligence to withstand her thoughts. She needed a man.