I have found something weird. I feel guilty after playing video games or scrolling on social media right now. I used to spend so much time on it and end up feeling fine about it. I usually play video games for about 8 hours per day, but I still feel fine. Well, am I in the wrong condition here or what?
I’ve been writing and reading since I started college. Now, whenever I want to play video games, it feels wrong for me. I feel like I have wasted so much time playing those games. Sometimes I use cheats to speed up my progress in the game I play. Do I feel pleasure? Well, yeah, but not for long.
I feel pleasure for about 30 minutes or more, but after that, I feel guilt and am not in the right place. I feel like I want to change my life. Well, how does that happen?
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I feel like I’m getting used to something called productivity. Now I don’t really enjoy being unproductive, such as playing video games or scrolling on social media. Not because they are hurting me, but because I don’t feel right after doing those activities. I want to do something worth it.
Whenever I sip my coffee, I feel like I want to write or read something. I want to make my coffee time valuable enough.