There is something about taoism that is comforting to a highly anxious person like me.
It’s about slowing down, valuing clarity over productivity, and accepting the nature of things.
It’s about surrendering control but putting in the work for something greater than myself.
I’ve fallen in love with the philosophy that doesn’t tell me to toughen up and be a boss bitch, to slay all day, to measure my worth through productivity. I’m fed up with all these slogans and messaging that reduces the human experience into some kind of a score system. I never felt enough and I will never be enough.
I can slay all day and still feel useless.
I can have a billion followers but without a loyal friend.
I can be the best in my field but a shitty person.
If we put our energy on things that don’t matter, we still won’t matter.
I want to be out of this matrix. I checked my instagram and realized how saturated it is with shallow influencers trying to sell me bags and makeups. I looked at all these glamorized travel pics. Is this what life is about? How long have I been bombarded with consumerist images? Why did I think it was okay?